Texas landscapes looked like Monet reincarnated and used our fields and byways for his canvas. The vibrant bluebonnets filled our vistas. Traffic stopped to watch families pose for their annual spring pictures surrounded by the sweet bluebonnets that filled the frame.
When the bluebonnets left the golden coreopsis with their sassy reddish-brown centers swept across acres dotted with grazing cows. They lined country roads that made it feel like you drove down the yellow brick road. Heaven found earth. Spring arrived with its usual panache.
When I saw the playful bluebirds donned in their majestic feathered coats nested in their sanctuaries outside our kitchen windows, I was reminded again that spring generates magical new beginnings.
The warmer temps invited me to clean out a little here and there. Clothes. Closets. Garage, well that’s Jim’s territory. He is not inclined to take on the spring cleaning bug like I do. And that included – my annual liver detox. The mocha colored polka dots on my hands and body signaled the time is now.
Have you found that hearty winter meals stopped feeling nourishing? I have traded them in for steamed spring veggies, lighter proteins, and asparagus that is great for cleansing the liver too, as long as, you can handle the sulfur.
Liver detoxes heal not only the body; they heal our mind too. You can either welcome unearthing old angry stories stored in your liver to finally get rid of them or bring them back, revitalizing those deep forgotten angry feelings.
Those of you who read my blogs and books know forgiveness is a vitally, important process for me. I hope to forgive everyone and everything, especially myself. It is the path to feeling free. So what happened last Good Friday? Did I forget my mantra?
Yep! I am humbled to report that my ex of 25 years managed to find another ancient forgotten woe-full tale. Wham, bam, slam one simple insulting remark he made about me in front of my son plummeted my heart into an old, dark, seething stew. Not the least bit appetizing.
In this time of renewal I am always willing to look inside? What story hides who you choose to be? We can rewrite that story now. Composed enough I didn’t choose to retaliate, I walked out of the house and waited in the car. My son, Sam got angry at me for being triggered again by the old man. What a mess! And thank God Sam, and I both knew we had a few minutes to let it all go and move on. So we did.
Well move on, but not forgotten. The following week I shared the story to Linda who had witnessed my life for the past 40 years. Her comment, “Suzy, he is still jealous.” Who chooses to live life with jealousy, not me?
I have a confession. My ex has been my teacher for three decades on releasing anger. Before I met him, I never acknowledged being angry, even when it was qualified. Then I remembered that aggressive liver cleanses always brought up old anger issues for healing.
Stephen Mitchell, in his book, The Gospel According to Jesus, said: “Forgiveness is a sign pointing us toward the Kingdom of God. Letting go an offense means letting go of the self that is offended. Can we be willing to let go of that in us that is offended?”
“As long as we remain serious, we are a slave to all the tendencies from the past that drive us to be what we don’t want to be and to react and behave in ways we have long since determined to refrain from reacting or behaving.” D. R. Butler
Zoe Jarboe taught me her secret, say “Joy! Joy! Joy! Joy! Joy!” When you get stuck in an awkward situation, say ‘joy’ five times out loud or quietly to yourself. It magically shifts energy. Dang, in the heat of my melodrama I couldn’t locate that tool in my ‘trusty’ tool box.
In hindsight, Good Friday’s event resurrected what no longer served me especially that I took it so seriously! Oh, our minds can be a three ring circus when we let it run amuck. Now that makes me laugh out loud.
Living with your ego is a dance. Remember you are the choreographer!
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